Saturday, September 24, 2005

the first weigh in

I had my first weigh in and have lost 8.2 lbs.
Pretty good for 1 week, I know a lot of it was water weight but it's a good motivator to have lost that much in 1 week

Friday, September 23, 2005

I'm so glad it's Friday.

I am a little nervous about my first weigh in tomorrow morning - not sure how I've done this week and I am wanting to participate in my usual Friday night ritual - a beer with friends at my favorite Brit pub. i just don't know if that would affect anything tomorrow morning.
That is the least of my concerns though.
Hurricane Rita is a concern to me. I pray that the people in the path of Rita are able to find safe shelter this weekend.
I have family in North Eastern Texas and they are all in my thoughts this weekend.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Just a little late.....

As I said three weeks ago, i have photos from my 29th birthday celebrations.
I'm not sure what arrangements were made, but I constantly had a fresh Newcastle Ale in front of me. And, it shows.
Erin, Jeremy and I on the back patio at the Bonn Lair

Megan and I....

and Kat and I

There were numerous other photos of myself with friends, but I looked so bad in them that I am NOT hoing to post them in a public forum such as this.

Also, heres a photo of my BABY brother and I taken a week later at my moms dinner for my birthday. No, I did not realize that I was wearing the exact same shirt. But I have to point out that this is my BABY brother. BABY. He's twelve and a half years younger than me. Can you believe this? Its insane that he's only 16 and is already 6'3" and a beanpole on top of it despite eating NONSTOP. NONSTOP! Meanwhile, I'm this short round thing. Genetics can be SO cruel!

Meanwhile, I'm already thinking of how I will spend my 30th birthday next year.
One of my friends is turning 30 just 2 weeks before I do. We had both discussed going on trips for our 30th birthdays and decided that since we have mutual friends we would combine our birthdays for one big trip of about 6 of us girls. We haven't decided on exactly where though. Boston is currently in the lead but other contenders are Chicago, Philadelphia and Austin. We're not sure where we'll end up, but we have 11 months to decide...

Saturday, September 17, 2005

I went.

I did go through with what I said last night and I joined WW this morning.
The first weigh in was daunting. I knew that I'd gained back most of that 60 lbs I had lost last year. I estimated that I'd gained back 40 lbs based upon what size clothing I'm wearing now, but I was curious to find out exactly how much I'd gained.
I havent gained 40 lbs.
I've gained 65.
So depressing.
This afternoon I thought about how brave I would be as far as the extent of my contact about weight loss goes.
Will I put my starting weight out there and update along with my current weight and total loss each week?
I can't do that.
I'm not that brave.
So I've decided that I'll just be updating how much I've loss each week.
Maybe one day when Ive lost a considerable amount I'll be able to put my starting weight up here, but I just can't do that now.
I'm also going to be setting mini-goals for myself and rewarding myself along the way. Nothing big - just little treats here & there.
My first goal - to lose 20 lbs. I'm not positive of what my reward will be then. I'm thinking a manicure and/or pedicure but am open to suggestions.

getting back on track.

2 years ago I had joined Weight Watchers. I followed the plan for about 10 months and lost 60 lbs - and by "followed the plan" I mean I cheated like Newt Gingrich did to his wife at Christmas, Thanksgiving and a couple of other similar occaisions. I was doing fairly well, following the plan, I had started going to the gym. I was trying to be healthier. Yes, I was still smoking and drinking occaisionally, but I was eating less and moving more. This was good progress. And I had 2 great sources of support - my lovely cousin Erin and my dearest friend Caren.
Then, it happened.
A little over a year ago I got my 3 younger cousins to take care of while my aunt got her life straightened out.
I went from being single with no children to having 3 of them ages 4, 12 & 13. All of a sudden I couldnt even go to my Saturday morning WW meetings because I couldnt leave the girls at home alone without supervision for one hour to go to a WW meeting and I wasnt about to haul all 3 of them with me. I thought I could still follow WW on my own.
I had to shuttle them between karate, gymnastics, band practice and performances, daycare as well as my own job that can be very demanding and require overtime and weekends at times. I was overwhelmed with the responsibilities. I'd be picking them up from whatever function one of them had that night and at some point a voice would pipe up and say "Nessie, we're hungry"
What? You mean in addition to driving you everywhere, helping you with homework and doing laundry I have to FEED you as well?
Drive throughs and pizza delivery became more and more convenient.
I can't exactly pinpoint it and I haven't figured out the algorithm yet, but I do believe that there is a correlation between the convenience of drive throughs and pizza delivery to the voluminosity of ones ass.
I've gained back probably 40 of the 60 lbs that I had lost.
It's so depressing.
But, I'm tired of being depressed about it and Saturday morning I am going back to WW.
I have reservations about going to a Saturday morning WW meeting. I'll most likely have had a drink or 2 the night before. Hell... I had 5 or 6 tonight. BUT, the last meeting on Saturday mornings.... the group is cool. At least, it was when I went there. I've thought about it and 11 am on saturday mornings you're going to have an interesting crowd. Based upon when I went previously, the super early morning meetings were not the groups that I could relate to. These were the types who woke up at the ass crack of dawn on a saturday morning to go jogging then go to the WW meeting. I do not understand these people. The others at the early morning meetings were old ladies who like to talk about their favorite types of flavored teas. I'm sorry. I LOVE tea, but I don't like to discuss teas for 30 minutes on a saturday morning while I'm half hung over. The 11 am group was fun. These were the men and women my own age who want to sleep in a little bit on a Saturday morning, show up in their jeans or sweats and t shirts and want to know the IMPORTANT information....
How many points are in an entire bottle of wine?
How many activity points can you get from sex?
I understand these people! I understand the curiosity of how many points you may have drank if you went to have one glass of wine with friends after work on Friday night and perhaps ended up having 2. Or 4.
I understand the desire to find alternate ways to earn activity points other than going to the gym for an hour or bicycling along the river. By the way, according to the leader at the meetings I went to, you don't get any activity points THAT way. No matter how you do it. So disappointing.
Anyways. I've grown tired of my constantly expanding ass. I've gone back up 2 jeans sizes and I REFUSE to go back to the size I was when I first joined WW 2 years ago. I am done. I have to do it for good this time.
And guess what.
I'll be telling you all about it the whole way through.
Every Saturday you'll get to hear about that mornings weigh in and meeting.
I'm thinking that this will keep me honest and keep me going if I'm putting it all out here at least once a week.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Last tag? Maybe?

ten years ago: I was 19 and would soon be moving from Sacramento to Boston.
five years ago: I was back in Sacramento and was just starting my position with my current employer.
one year ago: I had recently taken in my 3 younger cousins while their mom got her life back on track
five snacks:
red bell pepper with TJ's spicy hummus
reeses pieces
beer (it is TOO a snack!)

five songs I know all the words to:
Amazing Grace - ALL of the verses
a # of selections from Les Mis
Crush by DMB
I've Got What It Takes by Banu Gibson
and American Pie - something that has gotten me into trouble, namely the time I was in NYC with a friend and we were in a bar where there was a live musician playing the guitar and singing - we asked him to play American Pie and he said that he'd play but I'd have to get up on stage and sing it. Thankfully, I'd had a few drinks by then so the stagefright wasnt too bad.

five things I would do with $100 million:
buy an old victorian in SF
take care of grandma
take care of all of my cousins & siblings college tuitions
start a business of some sort to generate steady income

five places to run away to:
grandparents in OR

five things I would never wear:
halter top
white jeans
those weirdo arm warmer things that have been in a lot of knitting magazines lately

five favorite TV shows:
Sex and the City
Six Feet Under
Extreme Home Makeover

five biggest joys:
My family
my pets
getting something in the mail from ebay
relaxing with friends
winning trivia night at the pub I frequent

five favorite toys:
yarn & a crochet hook

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Tagged again.....

7 Things I plan to do before I die:
1. Kiss the Blarney Stone (While in Ireland, I also want to follow the McCarthys Pub rule of travel - never pass a bar with your name on it. My family name is Irish... this will be fun)
2. Own a home
3. Lose the weight
4. Travel somewhere that requires a passport
5. Have my photography shown
6. Quit smoking
7. Complete a charity bike tour

7 Things I can do:
1. Most things creative and/or artistic - pottery, stained glass, photography, beadwork, crochet, embroidery, etc....
2. Make a kick ass omelette
3. According to some, my swearing can make a sailor blush
4. Change a flat tire, jumpstart a car & check all my fluids - dad made me do all of this before he would let me get my learners permit when I was 15
5. Know when something is over my head and ask for advice
6. I can do comic imitations of some of my family members very well - namely my grandmother, brother & sister.
7. According to my younger cousins, I can fix ANYTHING - theres A LOT of pressure when someone has that much faith in you. Even if they are only 14, 13 & 5 years old.

7 Things I cannot do:
1. Balance my checkbook
2. Bypass the clearance section at any craft store or Target
3. drive the speed limit
4. say no to someone who asks for my help
5. get rid of books - I feel bad cleaning out my bookshelves even if I'm donating the books - I feel like I'm letting go of some source of knowledge or cultural value even if its a bad novel.
6. Play poker - I'm horrible at it.
7. Ignore the Krispy Kreme box

7 Things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. Intelligence
2. Sense of humor - especially a sarcastic wit
3. Kindness
4. Compassion
5. Eyes
6. easy going
7. artisitic appreciation

7 Things I say most often:
1. Holy crap!
2. What the eff?
3. Hence, The Crazy
4. blah blah blah
5. yeaaaaaaaah, anyways....
6. shut it
7. huh?

7 Celebrity crushes:
1. Jon Stewart - Super smart AND hilarious!
2. Adrien Brody - LOVED him in The Pianist
3. Zach Braff - so cute & goofy on Scrubs
4. Chris Noth - Mr Big from SATC.
5. Nicholas Cage in City of Angels
6. Craig Ferguson
7. Goran Visnjic